Thursday, April 29, 2010

One Step Forward, Another Step back~

This rollercoaster is really taking us for a ride!  I feel like just when we think there is progress, another roadblock pops up.  After going to court and getting guardianship, one must go to the embassy and file an I600.  A few months ago we started the process of embassy paperwork and put Shawn on an important document stating that he is the Petitioner and I am the Petitioner's spouse.  I had been told by others that when it comes time for the embassy appt. either the Petitioner, or the Petitioner's spouse could go to file the I600.  I was wrong.  Since Shawn is the petitioner, he must go.  This changes things.   We had planned on him going to court, and if things were dragging on I would switch him and go to the Embassy appt.  We can't do that now.  It's a done deal.  He has to do it all.  This is crazy scary as he can't miss that much work!  We are self employed and I'm wondering how we can make it work.  The only real option is that he may have to fly back and forth to Uganda several times....................can you imagine???  We don't really have a choice, so I'm "sucking it up" and trusting in the Lord.  There is no way I would get through this without Him.  He started this process when he planted a seed in our hearts and I believe he will finish it!! 

There has been another roadblock as far as visa's are concerned.  Praying that things will be worked out by the time we go, otherwise there will be an even longer delay in getting our boy home.  Our attorney has been promising for a month that our application will be submitted, still waiting.  When it is I will probably run around my neighborhood singing at the top of my lungs!  O.k. maybe not.  Filing the application is just one step in this uphill battle.  I've reached the point several times in the last week where I feel like I just can't do this anymore.  The up, down, play by play in this journey takes a toll, but then I alway get up and fight even harder!  I won't give up.  I feel so blessed to have a man by my side who listens to his heart.  We are on this journey because of him.  I never asked him to adopt, it was his thankful that he is a caring, feeling man.  Sometimes I laugh when people post mushy things about their spouse.  I think, "Why post? Why not tell him to his face?"  I think I'll do that, take my own advice that is!