Those who know me know that I read and watch just about anything I can about Africa.  I want to learn and know as much as possible.  Since I have been home from getting Joseph, I haven't had time to watch or read much, but I finally got a movie from Netflix called Apocalypse Africa: Made in America.  Throughout the movie images of extreme hardship and poverty are shown in different parts of Africa.  These types of images have alway had a great impact on me.  They have pulled at my heartstrings and constantly challenged me to do more. This time though, was different.  In each image I saw Joseph, my son.  I saw his face walking down the road without shoes.  I saw his belly enlarged from extreme hunger.  I saw his future in a man carrying fruit on the back of a bicycle.  I think it's time for me to take a break from these kinds of movies.  They tell me a story of a past left behind and a future that could have been so different for my boy.